A Slice of Ham
Jay's Personal Weblog
I need to write more
065 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
I need to write more, I apologize.
Ariel and I are engaged, we are also expecting a child in September. We couldn’t be happier. We are also moving into her old apartment in April so that we will have more room and a little nicer amenities.
More to come soon!
-J
Wow! It’s been some time!
0165 days
Since I posted last.
I’m not sure if there posts are still being forwarded through to my Facebook wall but we’ll find out. Anyway, since I last wrote I have:
-Moved back to Old Orchard Beach in my own private apartment
-Started dating Ariel, someone I am very fond of
-Continued my work at FOX23 and am enjoying it immensely
-Formed and competed on a company bowling team at with FOX and are 1 game away from winning the championship
-Taken a paid vacation from work and am currently enjoying that.
Hopefully all will stay happy in my life, it’s been a while since I’ve been in this condition!
Happy Holidays!
-J
When is it real?
0276 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
When is it real? When someone says that they have fun with you and want to be around you, how do you know it’s real? I’m struggling with that very question right now.. This girl knows that I like her a lot, she’s like a breath of fresh air to me.. She has so many good qualities about her, but there is something missing. I just feel like it’s not going to progress any further.. There are times when we are apart that she will be a totally different person, very “willing”. But when we are together it’s like it never comes up, she’s a straightedge.. It’s so confusing but I can’t get an answer out of her.. I feel like maybe she just wants to be friends, or maybe she’s just not into me like that.. We’ve been out three times and it seems like we’re just stuck in the mud.. I don’t know if I should tell her how I really feel, or if I should just say goodbye before I get hurt again..
Maybe it was too good to be true?
A return to the usual stuff
0313 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
I’m back after a long break not writing. Elizabeth and I have split up permanently and I’m dating Sarah. She’s great and she has an awesome 2 (soon to be 3) year old boy. They keep me pretty busy. My life and relationship isn’t perfect, but there’s never been a period where it has been. So all in all everything is normal for me.
I’m also still working at FOX 23, the job is great and so are the folks there. I’m very happy with my job right now..
It’s too hot to write anymore, gonna go lay down.. Until next time…
-Jay
The Beginning Of The End
0463 days
Tonight marks the end of another chapter in my life, It’s my last night at Bayside Bowl, which means that for one day I’ll be unemployed. Starting Monday, I’ll be the Chief Operator and Assistant Chief Engineer at WPFO-TV, that’s FOX 23 for you guys in Maine.
Things with Elizabeth and I are difficult, but we are working on our problems and hopefully will get everything straightened out before too long. I love her very much and couldn’t imagine living without her, especially now. We have a long way to go but only she and I can fix our problems, nobody else. I remain motivated and optimistic.
I’m sure I’ll have a long post Monday talking about some of my new duties. Until then, Stay thirsty my friends!
-Jay
Life Changes For The Better
0468 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So Elizabeth and I have reconciled, we have talked about things going on between us and we also have learned something very, very amazing. I can’t release details yet but I will very soon.
Things are turning around for me and I couldn’t be happier, I’ve got my new job starting next Monday, I’ve got Elizabeth, and we’ve got happiness between us. It couldn’t get much better from here…
Stay tuned!
-J
The Terrible Twos
0477 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So I’ve recognized a pattern with my relationships that I need to talk about. It seems that most of my recent relationships have lasted either 2 months exactly or end within a week of reaching that 2 month mark. Tori Rossignol, Danyle, Deserei and Liz, all either 2 months exactly or thereabouts. Bonus, Tori Morrill was 2 years..
It’s something with twos that I just can’t understand, maybe someday I’ll figure it out but for now I suppose I can just break up my relationship schedule into 2 month segments.
I wonder who the next contestant will be….
-J
Sleeping
0520 days
by WX4WTF
in Uncategorized
So let’s see, I’m at work, sitting on #7 watching pins drop in. Wearing a pair of my old Astro earplugs because it’s so loud in here, wishing I were home in bed sleeping..
It’s Getting Cold!
0528 days
by WX4WTF
in Uncategorized
I just looked at the Time & Temperature sign in Portland, it said 19º…. I think it’s time I thought about moving back to Florida… This shit is retarded… This’ll be my first winter back from Florida and although it was really cold down there last winter, it still was warmer than up here.. I’m not ready for it.. fml…
I’m not supposed to be here…
0540 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
For a long time I’ve never quite understood what the problem was, but I think I have finally figured it out.. I’m just not supposed to be here.. Somewhere along the road I’ve traveled, something should have ended up differently… I dunno if it was when I was hit by a car when I was really little, or last spring when i tried to OD, but something should have ended differently for me and I shouldnt be here… I don’t want to be here…
My body and my emotions cant handle anymore stress like this… I’ve gotten to the point where I’m afraid something is going to happen medically because the results of these breakups have gotten worse and worse on me.. I couldn’t even see straight, I couldn’t breathe.. My body is breaking down because of the stress I’m under…
Now she says she needs space, i asked her not to throw our relationship away over this, and she said ok but i know that shes never coming back.. Ellen didnt, Tori Rossignol didnt, Tori Morrill didnt and now Danyle wont..
Burn Out
0No I’m not talking about the awesome video game for XBOX 360 or things you do with your souped up ricer. I;m talking about the kind of burn out you get when you’re overworked and under rested. I got called in today on my day off, which happens a lot, but I was kind of upset about it today because I hadn’t slept well last night, and I was looking forward to a whole day where I didn’t have to do anything at all, I could just lounge around in my PJs and not have to work. Just a whole 24 hour period to myself.
Cue the boss texting me at 3:30 asking me of I could come in early tonight because he needs a hand with some repairs. Wait, come in early? On my day off?! No… Of course I replied, “today was supposed to be my day off, but I guess I can come in.” So i quickly get dressed and hit the road. I’m not happy. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job, but too much of anything is not good for you, and its bad enough I had to give up a day off to supervise league play on Sunday nights. Now I have to give up my Wednesday, which i got in return for the sundays. So now apparently I had been reduced to having 1 day off a week, because my boss doesn’t want to close.
I can’t keep working 6 day weeks, I’ve already reached burnout, and it’s not getting any better not having any time to myself anymore. I get out of work Tuesday morning at 1:30-2am, fall asleep around 4am, and wake up arounf 4pm. that leaves me not many hours to be able to do what I want on my one day off.
Something needs to change..
Hangin’ Round…
0582 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So I’m not gonna blog about my new girlfriend because every time i do it seems that it ends up falling apart short thereafter. So instead, as I sit here sipping my bourbon and ginger ale, I will blog about my weekend plans with some girl i know. 
It’s this girl’s birthday tomorrow (today) and I have gotten her a present. I can’t say right now what it is but I’ll tell you in the next post. Im going home after my adult beverage and going to bed only to wake up super early on my day off to drive to Bangor and spend the day with her. I can’t wait.
Right now however as I’m sipping my bourbon, I’m thinking to myself.. “What if this is the end of my troubles?”, “What if I’ll never have to worry again?”. I’d really like to turn my life around as far as my finances go. I’d like to clear up my debt which has surpassed $10000. Hospital bills, a credit card and a few other miscellaneous things.
Until next.
Struggling to find what I’m looking for…
0597 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So I’m sitting here at work watching all these women my age walk around and I think to myself, “what is wrong with me?”, “Why can’t I find someone when there are women crawling all over this place?”. I don’t have the answers I need, and I’m still single.
I’ve had a couple dates, but they’ve all been craigslist people. I have never ever picked up a date by meeting someone in person and asking them out. I just don’t have it in me.. Not to mention women don’t exactly go out of their way to talk to me.. I mean am I really that bad? I don’t consider myself model-quality but I also don’t think I’m hideous.
I’ve seen guys far uglier than I am with gorgeous women, and I just don’t understand what the problem is.. Am I really destined to be single for life? Is this some kind of terrible punishment for something I did in the past? When will it be my turn?
New Home
0608 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So after a small delay, we have finally moved into the new location. It’s decent. I’m happy and I think nick is too. It’s relatively inexpensive, and has enough room for both of us and our stuff.
Photos and more details tomorrow!
Movin’ On Up
0617 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
Well, it happened kind of suddenly but I found a place to live and cool thing about it is it’s gonna be nick and I sharing the house! So I’m pumped! More details to come soon!
Hurricane Earl – Final
0620 days
by WX4WTF
in Amateur Radio
Hurricane Earl was downgraded to a Tropical Storm shortly before making it’s Cape Cod brushing, and actually steered away from Maine as it got into the gulf. Tropical Storm watches were in effect for our area but were dropped before the storm approached, and we saw no gusty winds or extremely heavy rain that night.
Saturday morning all was normal.
Although the storm turned out to be a near miss with no impact, preparations were made just in case. This is an excellent opportunity for those in Amateur Radio to check their gear and make tests to verify their rigs, gear and emergency power all function within specs. The last thing anybody wants is to get into the heart of an emergency and find out their equipment doesn’t work.
Until the next one,
73
WX4WTF
Hurricane Earl – 4
0625 days
by WX4WTF
in Amateur Radio
Hurricane Earl has weakened quite a bit but it still maintaining hurricane status. It is expected to be downgraded to a tropical storm by the time it nears cape cod. The tropical storm watches south of Cumberland County have been lifted, however, tropical storm watches are still in effect from Casco Bay northward, where Tropical storm warnings have been posted.
Winds are currently at 80mph.
More details to come.
-J
Hurricane Earl – 3
0627 days
by WX4WTF
in Amateur Radio
The forecast track for Earl hasn’t changed much. But the forecasted strength has been lowered a bit.
The forecast track moved slightly eastward taking Maine out of the 3 day cone. But we are still expected to receive tropical storm conditions and a tropical storm watch has been posted for the coastline of Maine to nova scotia Canada where a hurricane watch is in effect.
More to come.
Hurricane Earl – 2
0629 days
by WX4WTF
in Amateur Radio
Latest advisory on Earl shows the storm is holding it’s strength at Category 4 with 135mph winds. The forecast track is also holding steady with the western 3rd of it taking the storm over Maine.
-Jay
WX4WTF
Hurricane Earl – 1
0629 days
by WX4WTF
in Amateur Radio
Today I’ll start blogging about Hurricane Earl and it’s potential to impact the New England area.
As of the latest advisory from the NHC, Earl is impacting the areas in and around the Leeward Islands, winds are at 135mph and it is classified a Category 4 storm.
The latest forecasts take Earl right up the East Coast between Thursday and Saturday. It has the potential to make a direct hit on Maine Friday into Saturday depending on track.
It is forecast to be a Category 2 at that time.
-Jay
WX4WTF
Bowling for Sanity
0636 days
Well, well, well, what to do when your mind is melting down and your one friend works a lot? Hang out at work!! Of course my work consists of an awesome bowling center with a full bar and kitchen, so it makes it rather easy to justify going there. Of course I usually end up punching in and working. I don’t mind, I like money just as much as the next guy. We just hired a new guy this week, the boyfriend of my friend’s sister, he’s a good kid, I hope he’s able to learn quickly. I also found out a few weeks ago that we will be getting health insurance which the company will be paying almost all of. So I’m super excited!!
Of course my love life is still not great, it’s getting better but it’s not what it used to be and that makes me sad because I really wish it would hurry up and get great again so I can be happy on all angles..
I <3 you...
-J
I Quit
0That’s it, I quit. As of today, I am off women for good.. I have resigned myself to the singles life, empty of any love or romance. It’s all over because I have been played for the last time..
Fuck you all and burn in hell.
Love,
Jay
Time To Push For Tougher Laws
0Here’s a thought, make dishonesty a crime. They already have the lying under oath thing, time to make it apply to everyday people and situations.
A wife lies to her husband? Guilty!
A girlfriend lies to her boyfriend? Guilty!
Of course I obviously think this should be both ways, that’s fair, but I think that we’re focusing on all these little things that don’t really hurt anybody. Gay marriage? LEAVE THESE PEOPLE ALONE!! GAYS AND LESBIANS ARE PEOPLE TOO! We’re sitting here busting these people’s chops when we could be curing cancer or helping the poor, or making our schools less military/prison style. Fight the real problems in America. Dishonesty.
Penalty for being convicted of lying? Death by hanging. Please?
Now I know what you’re gonna say, “But Jay, everyone lies in time!”.
Yes that’s true, which means after were done hanging all of them, there’ll be a lot less spending, less need for all this welfare and social security, and less assholes driving north on 295 every afternoon!
Your thoughts?
-JC
I Want To Go Back
0643 days
I miss Florida so much. Words can’t describe the importance of having good friends, and those friends are the ones who made me a ham radio operator. It wouldn’t be so bad if I could contact them via radio, but I can’t. Of course returning to Florida brings back terrible memories of Tori and Ellen… I don’t know that I could ever overcome those..
I miss you..
A Good Series
0644 days
by WX4WTF
in Personal Life
So Nick introduced me to the BBC series Robin Hood today. I’m a big fan of anything Robin Hood and frankly would just die to be him, of course I think by today’s standards I’d probably end up jailed. Anyway, the series is well done with the typical storyline and villains. Of course Marian is gorgeous as well. Played by Lucy Griffiths, she brings a bad girl image to the role. Very sexy I might add.
Check it out on Netflix Instant Queue.
-JC
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