A Slice of Ham http://jcwebdesign.com/blog Jay's Personal Weblog Wed, 14 Dec 2011 13:10:28 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 Wow! It’s been some time! http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/12/07/wow-its-been-some-time/ http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/12/07/wow-its-been-some-time/#comments Wed, 07 Dec 2011 20:36:26 +0000 WX4WTF http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/?p=159 Since I posted last.

I’m not sure if there posts are still being forwarded through to my Facebook wall but we’ll find out. Anyway, since I last wrote I have:

-Moved back to Old Orchard Beach in my own private apartment

-Started dating Ariel, someone I am very fond of

-Continued my work at FOX23 and am enjoying it immensely

-Formed and competed on a company bowling team at with FOX and are 1 game away from winning the championship

-Taken a paid vacation from work and am currently enjoying that.

Hopefully all will stay happy in my life, it’s been a while since I’ve been in this condition!

 

Happy Holidays!

-J

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Maybe it was too good to be true?

]]> http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/08/19/when-is-it-real/feed/ 0 A return to the usual stuff http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/07/12/a-return-to-the-usual-stuff/ http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/07/12/a-return-to-the-usual-stuff/#comments Tue, 12 Jul 2011 20:32:23 +0000 WX4WTF http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2011/07/12/a-return-to-the-usual-stuff/ I’m back after a long break not writing. Elizabeth and I have split up permanently and I’m dating Sarah. She’s great and she has an awesome 2 (soon to be 3) year old boy. They keep me pretty busy. My life and relationship isn’t perfect, but there’s never been a period where it has been. So all in all everything is normal for me.

I’m also still working at FOX 23, the job is great and so are the folks there. I’m very happy with my job right now..

It’s too hot to write anymore, gonna go lay down.. Until next time…

-Jay

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Things with Elizabeth and I are difficult, but we are working on our problems and hopefully will get everything straightened out before too long. I love her very much and couldn’t imagine living without her, especially now. We have a long way to go but only she and I can fix our problems, nobody else. I remain motivated and optimistic.

I’m sure I’ll have a long post Monday talking about some of my new duties. Until then, Stay thirsty my friends!

-Jay

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Things are turning around for me and I couldn’t be happier, I’ve got my new job starting next Monday, I’ve got Elizabeth, and we’ve got happiness between us. It couldn’t get much better from here…

Stay tuned!
-J

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It’s something with twos that I just can’t understand, maybe someday I’ll figure it out but for now I suppose I can just break up my relationship schedule into 2 month segments.

I wonder who the next contestant will be….

-J

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]]> http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/12/17/sleeping/feed/ 0 It’s Getting Cold! http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/12/09/its-getting-cold/ http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/12/09/its-getting-cold/#comments Fri, 10 Dec 2010 03:10:40 +0000 WX4WTF http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/?p=146 I just looked at the Time & Temperature sign in Portland, it said 19º….  I think it’s time I thought about moving back to Florida…  This shit is retarded…  This’ll be my first winter back from Florida and although it was really cold down there last winter, it still was warmer than up here.. I’m not ready for it..  fml…

]]> http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/12/09/its-getting-cold/feed/ 0 I’m not supposed to be here… http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/11/27/im-not-supposed-to-be-here/ http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/11/27/im-not-supposed-to-be-here/#comments Sat, 27 Nov 2010 23:35:27 +0000 WX4WTF http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/?p=139 For a long time I’ve never quite understood what the problem was, but I think I have finally figured it out.. I’m just not supposed to be here.. Somewhere along the road I’ve traveled, something should have ended up differently… I dunno if it was when I was hit by a car when I was really little, or last spring when i tried to OD, but something should have ended differently for me and I shouldnt be here… I don’t want to be here…

My body and my emotions cant handle anymore stress like this… I’ve gotten to the point where I’m afraid something is going to happen medically because the results of these breakups have gotten worse and worse on me..  I couldn’t even see straight, I couldn’t breathe..  My body is breaking down because of the stress I’m under…

Now she says she needs space, i asked her not to throw our relationship away over this, and she said ok but i know that shes never coming back..  Ellen didnt, Tori Rossignol didnt, Tori Morrill didnt and now Danyle wont..

]]> http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/11/27/im-not-supposed-to-be-here/feed/ 0 Burn Out http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/11/17/burn-out/ http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/2010/11/17/burn-out/#comments Thu, 18 Nov 2010 04:16:57 +0000 WX4WTF http://jcwebdesign.com/blog/?p=131 No I’m not talking about the awesome video game for XBOX 360 or things you do with your souped up ricer. I;m talking about the kind of burn out you get when you’re overworked and under rested. I got called in today on my day off, which happens a lot, but I was kind of upset about it today because I hadn’t slept well last night, and I was looking forward to a whole day where I didn’t have to do anything at all, I could just lounge around in my PJs and not have to work. Just a whole 24 hour period to myself.

Cue the boss texting me at 3:30 asking me of I could come in early tonight because he needs a hand with some repairs. Wait, come in early? On my day off?! No… Of course I replied, “today was supposed to be my day off, but I guess I can come in.” So i quickly get dressed and hit the road. I’m not happy. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job, but too much of anything is not good for you, and its bad enough I had to give up a day off to supervise league play on Sunday nights. Now I have to give up my Wednesday, which i got in return for the sundays. So now apparently I had been reduced to having 1 day off a week, because my boss doesn’t want to close.

I can’t keep working 6 day weeks, I’ve already reached burnout, and it’s not getting any better not having any time to myself anymore. I get out of work Tuesday morning at 1:30-2am, fall asleep around 4am, and wake up arounf 4pm. that leaves me not many hours to be able to do what I want on my one day off.

Something needs to change..

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